what to say.. what to say...

I don't even know where to begin.

I don't even know what the hell is going on.

I have so much that I can't say, but I need to say.

The only person I could really say these things to is Zorro, and he won't talk to me.
so I guess I'll just list these things.
1) Zorro broke up with me on the way to Lady Gaga's Monsterball... I've been waiting for this concert for months.. spent hundreds of dollars on it.. planned my outfit for months... and I cried through it.
2)I have so much effing work to do. I actually have all 90s and above in every class right now, even in chemistry?! but I'm in AP english, AP us history, and stupid chemistry honors. Not to mention, a college class, which I had a test in today. My first college test. Oh joy. & Tomorrow, we have to have 5 pages of my stupid capstone paper typed and turned in. Oh, except the power randomly went out in the computer lab, and just about everyone was on page 4, and then lost about 2 pages of their work.
3) A group of people in a pottery class this week randomly decided to make up a huge rumor about me saying that I was pregnant & to text me and harass me about it. I'm not pregnant. Promise. But now the whole town thinks I am. I walk the hallways of my school and I get glares and looks and people stare me down. I have friends from other schools texting me asking if I'm pregnant or saying "I'm worried." I didn't even know the people who started the rumor. The guy who did it did it solely to get back at Zorro, whom he used to be best friends with, but hates now. So now, for the next 9 months, wherever I go, I will get stared down thanks to a bunch of cruel people. Oh, and the person who gave out my number was one of my best friends. I feel so betrayed. Believe it or not, I'm not going to hold anything against the guy who did this to me. He's apologized and explained the situation pretty thoroughly, and I've got too much going on in my life right now to hold any grudges.
4) I've gotten so much support from my friends this week. Your absolute best friends really show themselves when something like this happens. God. LeighAiko and DinoNiccy. I love these people. Dearly. I don't know what I would have done this week if I hadn't had them. My best friends
5) Everyone keeps telling me I should find someone else to date. I've already been asked out. I can't do that. I really just want Zorro. I don't even care if I look stupid saying this, but I'll wait for him if he goes into the air force. He's got so much time, and he's freaking out now, thinking he has to drop everything he's got & go.
If I'm not good enough for him, I'm done.
I don't even wanna see anymore guys, except the ones that are my friends.


So good luck to all of you guys out there. You're not getting anything from me.

That's pretty much it.

xoxo,
Claire.

keep my heart beating.

Wow wow wow.

Raise your hand if you had a hard weekend!!


Meeee!
Really, I was overloaded with work. I had chemistry homework, and a chemistry lab to type up, and a bunch of sources to do notecards for in english. For capstone!
Then, there comes the depression. My aunt died two years ago of breast cancer and what would have been her 48th birthday is tomorrow. She was such an extraordinary person. Everyone who met her loved her. They named a fishing tournament in Morehead City after her when she died. It's the lady's part of the Big Rock Blue Marlin Tournament- The Lady Angler Tournament. It's now the Keli Wagner Lady Angler Tournament.
Here's the tournament's t-shirts.and here is Keli Wagner herself.(with my Uncle Casey!)

I was just really upset. So I wasn't exactly in the best state of mind. So anyway, Today I was feeling a lot better. I spent yesterday with Zorro and Colbydeanya so I sort of got out all the bad emotions. I'm really glad I have Zorro. He's great.

I did nothing. Basically all day. My day was basically like a kindergartener's because I was so tired from staying up watching Lady Gaga win all the VMAs last night:) (First period, I sat there. 2nd period, I sat there, and in 3rd period, I colored. & In 4th I sat there. End of Day) I was so proud of Mother Monster:) What's even cooler is that I'm going to the monsterball this weekend! I'm pumped.

You could call me a little monster:)

Today, ReadySetRetho took me home:) (which he had to because my good for nothing next door neighbor didn't tell me that she had a dentist appointment.. I really need a car. Riding with him was fun though) He's basically like my brother. He's awesome. He told me that his little brother walked in his room with a super soaker and said "Say your ABCs." Personally, I would have cracked up.

Anyway, I'm neglecting to to my chemistry study guide right now so I need to get on that!

Until next time! ... Let's hope I survive until next time!

xoxo,

Claire

Greatness. the great.

Sooo, life is great.

I'm really happy with life :)

I'm really loving school. My lunch period is awesome. Colbydeanya, DinoNiccy, SylvieTheGreat, Emeline, ReadySetRetho, StrothaFromAnothaMotha, Willikin, and KaliMyLove are all in my lunch. It's so fun.

I sit around really funny people in all of my classes. They really entertain me:) For example. We were in the computer lab the other day and we all were told to write a letter to our graduation project committee and describe ourselves. NajaMeansBusiness starts typing "Dear Committee, For my birthday.. I went to buffalo wild wings.. It was good." hahaahaa personally, I thought I should have taken it as an opportunity to tell the people how much I hate their guts for making us do this stupid project. However, for the sake of my grade on it, I stayed serious.

Today, I plan to go hang out with Zorro:) and Colbydeanya wants me to go to the coffee shop this weekend with him bad. We're gonna have to get him a girlfriend.

My psychology class is fun. The college one:) The professor is hilarious. Unintentionally. He brings his voice up at the end of all of his sentences like he's asking a question. The first day, he asked Star Wars trivia. The next day, he talked about dopamine and how pleasurable sex was thanks to dopamine. Oh, and he also talked about weed a lot.

Zorro's best friend is in there with me. The only person I know in the class. I sat with him the day the professor started talking about sex. We have so much fun making fun of him.

Anyways, we're off on labor dayy and I'll probably be hanging out with Zorro, and his best friend that's in my psychology class (whom I cannot think of a proper nickname for yet. ) and his best friend's girlfriend. It should be really fun. Then back to school and psychology class on tuesday.

Lots o' fun:)

Til next time:)

xoxo,

Claire.