I pity the fool.

I see everyone around town now and it's like a giant blur.

There's a very small amount of people who turned out to be who I thought they were.

Now I'm even refusing to go to the places where I know they will be.

& When I bump into them, it's even worse.

It's painful.

I see them and I want to cry.

Of course,as the unsensitive jerks they are, they are totally unaffected.

"Although there's pain in my chest, I still wish you the best with a fuck you."

Well, well.

I haven't blogged in the LONGEST time. I feel so weird sitting here blogging. I've been so busy lately! This weekend, I'm taking the SAT, and the very next weekend, I'm taking the ACT. I'm so stressed out! Annnd procrastinating, as you can see.

So, going back to the last thing that I talked about apparently- spirit week. Long time ago. The highlight of that week was the fact that Idressed up as Lady Gaga at school. I'm just quite the little monster;) My friend (SylvietheGreat) was Keri Hilson.

With recent news, I guess I'm just a different species of person, because nobody seems to take friendships as seriously as I do. I mean, I'm the type of person who will absolutely adore their friends and be so appreciative to them for being a friend and will do anything for them, and when something's up, I'll go to extreme lengths to try to mend the relationship. I've recently lost two of my absolute best friends I've ever had. One, due to the miscommunication of something said, and the other due to the fact that she communicated it. I have a relatively new friend, OtherClaireAnnaClaire (I'm lacking creativity in the name making up today..) and we were talking about how we both did that, and how frustrating it is. We both came to the conclusion that if relationships turn into something unbearably stressful, then they aren't worth it, unfortunately.

I'm gonna have to let them go. I'm seeing things I never saw in them before. Qualities that I NEVER saw in them before. It's kinda unbelievable. But hey, I guess fall was all about change anyways. Everything changes. Unfortunately.. but now it's time for winter.

But I'll always be looking back at fall and wondering what happened.